you probably have one day a week you look forward to as your “easier” day, right? wednesdays are mine. wednesdays are my unscheduled days. my spend-time-with-my-kiddos days. it is easy to be content on wednesdays. but last wednesday was anything but content.
when i went to bed wednesday night, my house was A MESS. we had a full day, without any time to pick up after ourselves. i didn't feel well - tired, achy, just not right. but with things on the calendar and a husband out of town, life goes on. appointments. school. grocery shopping. mothering. working from home. speaker at church. on a day i wanted everyone to nap, nobody napped. i went to bed with a dishwasher that still hadn't been unpacked from the day before. yep. our whole day's dishes remained in the sink. every room was messy downstairs. every room was messy upstairs. all the groceries we bought were still on the kitchen table because my pantry was a mess. i went to bed with the washer doing a load for the second time because i had waited so long to get it in the dryer. it was that kind of day. i'll be honest, i forgot to remind myself to "be" anything last wednesday.
on days like last wednesday, i have a bad habit of spending a lot of moments wishing i was doing something else. unfortunately, this makes it easy to forget about all the things that are just right in my day. noticing the LITTLE things helps a lot, but sometimes even i forget to notice. a few months ago i was outside with friends and a neighbor walked by. we asked her the usual, "how's it going?" she replied with, "oh you know, living the dream." we all laughed because she meant it to be a bit tongue in cheek. for some reason, her comment came back to me last week.
as i worked on my just “be” resolution {offering myself many many reminders and going easy on myself when i forgot}, i reflected on “living the dream.” i came to a conclusion i often forget.
if you had asked me 10 years ago what i wanted my life to look like in 10 years, it would be this. i wanted to be married to a loving husband. i wanted to be a mom. i wanted to live near my family. i wanted to live in a house with the nicest neighbors in the world. i wanted my kids to be able to play and love and learn. i wanted to be a mother first and work second. i wanted my husband’s job to be enough so that this was all feasible. i wanted this exact life we have worked so hard to build. sure, sometimes it comes with a lot more than what i pictured. and on these hard days, it is easy to forget that i am actually living the dream. so this week, i am reminding myself to “be” content, even on the not so dreamy days.
I remember this conversation about “living the dream” with you a couple of months ago… 🙂
Love this post! Thanks for the reminder! I seem to be getting hit over the head with this one this week!